Ponderings....

Some sweet quotes about momma's.  Thought it was appropriate for this weekend. ;)


A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie.  ~Tenneva Jordan

Any mother could perform the jobs of several air traffic controllers with ease.  ~Lisa Alther

You can fool some of the people some of the time, but you can't fool mom.  ~Author Unknown
 
Mirror, mirror on the wall,
I am my mother after all.
~Author Unknown
 

One of the very few reasons I had any respect for my mother when I was thirteen was because she would reach into the sink with her bare hands - bare hands - and pick up that lethal gunk and drop it into the garbage.  To top that, I saw her reach into the wet garbage bag and fish around in there looking for a lost teaspoon.  Bare hands - a kind of mad courage.  ~Robert Fulghum

Each one bears some sort of truth and connection.
Happy Mother's Day weekend.
~chat soon!
 

honest.

if you know me.
you know i am honest.
i have something cooped up now for awhile.
and i gotta let it out.
adam moved the business out on september 30, 2011.
we talked all summer about the sacrifice it would be.
it would be a change in budgeting for a bit.  it would be a change in time spent away from home.
i understood. i nodded when i should.  i smiled.
and i meant it all.
we also spoke of the excitement of it.
the uncharted waters.  the new places it could take his company.
it has been 7 months and a little over a week.
let me be frank.
this has been the hardest thing i have done. ever.
and i know it has been the hardest thing adam has ever done.
i'm not saying this to whine or to ask for sympathy.
i am just saying it.
financially, we are stable, because adam is nothing if he isn't frugal, budget minded, and down right anal retentive.  but it has been a strain.  (2 root canals in 3 days hasn't helped).
we are fine.  i'm not hinting that we are destitute, or having to eat spam and mustard sandwiches (as kate told our dear bobbie (angel babysitter) this week.) but we have had to say no to things (like vacation.) and look at things with a critical eye.
we go to several social occasions, networking events where people (mainly wives) will very eagerly say...."aren't you THRILLED to have adam out of the house?"
and i smile, and nod and say, yes....it's nice.
and inside i say this....
NO. I MISS HIM.  I MISS THE FACT THAT HE ISN"T HOME WHEN WE COME HOME (most nights) I MISS THE FACT THAT WE HAVE TO BE ORGANIZED ABOUT DINNER AND HAVE IT TAKEN OUT TO DEFROST THE NIGHT BEFORE. I MISS THE FACT THAT IF I RUN OUT OF INSULIN IN MY PUMP HE CAN'T BRING IT TO ME AT WORK BECAUASE IT'S A SEVEN MINUTE DRIVE FROM HOME....I MISS THE FACT THAT HE/WE DIDN'T HAVE A RENT CHECK AND UTILITY CHECK TO PAY EACH MONTH...I MISS THE FACT THAT IF I LEFT MY CURLING IRON ON I CAN CALL AND SAY CAN YOU CHECK THAT...INSTEAD OF HOPING MY NEIGHBORS DON'T TEXT ME AND SAY...WERE YOU EXPECTING A FIRE TRUCK OUTSIDE YOUR HOUSE TODAY?????? I MISS THE FACT THAT IF HE 'WORKS LATE' HE ISN'T IN THE BASEMENT....HE IS NOT HERE. 
some may read that and say. LORDY IS SHE A SNOT.
i don't mean to sound that way....but honestly, i was NOT aware of the change it would be on our life.
it's a good change.  things are getting into a rhythm.  i carry my insulin with me, i unplug the curling iron every morning so i know it won't burn the house down.  adam worries about eating, so he takes care of taking the meat out of the freezer...its just different.  
am i thankful that we were able to engage in this outstanding opportunity, especially in this economy?  am i thankful that the company is selling their tail feathers off?  certainly.  am i thankful that God has held our hand through this.  TOTALLY.
but sometimes, it just feels good to be honest.
so there you have it.
it's been tough.  and if you have had any ounce of us in the last 7 months and a little over a week since the actual business left our home.  i thank you.  i thank you so much.  if you picked up our  children, listened to me, listened to adam, celebrated with us, worried with us, watched us, prayed for us....we couldn't have done it without you.  and i mean that. honest.

how are you?

man. time flies.  i posted the last post last thursday. here it is wednesday and i haven't even looked at this silly thing.
i seriously feel i am in a cross between a wind tunnel and a hamster wheel. 
picture that. 
blowing around and running in place.
 it's just ugly.
it's just busy.
i have said before, we aren't super tight scheduled people.
i don't do well with that.  since i don't do well.  really none of us here at our home do well with that.
i'm trying to keep it happy and mellow.  i think it is working? (that is a bold face LIE!)
i have 9 1/2 days of school.  (school days-not weekends)
anne has one more day then me. 
then the real fun begins.
last weekend adam didn't work.
at all. 
first time in months.  more months then i care to admit.
i'm not counting...it doesn't matter.
he was home and that was fun.
we cleaned out closets and pantries. 
and now we have all the leftovers strewn throughout our house. 
that was saturday. today is wednesday.  the stuff still sits. 
yesterday we had a friend of anne's to help get to girlscouts, anne's softball practice, the girlscout fly-up ceremony, kate to get, and dinner...really that shouldn't be hard.  oh and 3 other girls to grab from school to take to practice.
i sent adam a bulletted email that stated what had to be done.
i got a response...call me.
i did.
he said, tell me what you need me to do.  there are just too many words in that email.
ha.
silly boys.
i love him though. and that's all that matters! (right?!)
i have lots more to write and a picture here or there to post, i will catch up.
happy may 9th.  
a month from now, i will have already gone to the pool with the girls a week or so.
paid by debt to the library.
made brownies, or some baked treat.
spelled every word under the sun to write on the driveway....
read 2 books for my own pleasure.
the hamster wheel will be put away again till august.
i will survive.

thankful.

just rounded home....so happy! love this chick!

today i am thankful.
i am thankful for so many things....
awhile back i went for my annual well lady check up.
my well lady test came back weird.  this past monday i had to go get it investigated.
it was not horrible, but not something i would want to do each monday.
i really didn't give it a lot of thought....but as anyone does when it deals with the 'c' word (meaning cancer) it can eat at you...even sub consciously.
i got a call today.  it is 'clear'.  not super great. but passable.  i'm good with that.
yesterday, i wasn't feeling well.  i got sick in my car.  how gross is that?  sometimes you just have too.
adam had his first 'event' at the new office, the night before.
it was a 'happy hour'.  i was to attend.
yuck.
i didn't know what to wear.  i had picked out a nice pair of slacks and a blouse.
adam said....i think you should wear a dress...
my mom said....laura bush would wear a dress.
so i went to target.  bought a new pair of spanx and wore a dress.  no lie.
then i didn't eat dinner.
i ate a whole bunch of little smokies, a lot of mexican bean dip, and some sausage and cheese.  topped with a splash of wine.  yuck. my 35 year old gut said.  HECK NO.
gross. i got over it and taught my rear off....classy?!
anyway, i'm thankful that it passed (literally) it wasn't a bug, or anything more serious, and no i am not pregnant. i promise.
i am thankful that anne's little softball team, the sweet bees are progressing nicely.
they continue to lose, but that's okay.  they are hitting.  and fielding, kind of.  it's only the 4th game or so....i think by the 12th we should win.  hello they are only 7.
so that is about it.  i am just thankful.
as i told my mom today.  there are about 12 more days of school left and i am finally getting in the swing of things...
typical. right?!
sheesh.  love motherhood!
~chat soon!
p.s. if you look at the pic. look at little anne.  and then look at the BIG GIRL on 3rd.  SHE IS NOT 8 OR UNDER...do you THINK?!

swimming....

waiting.

love the tounge

proud of herself.

tonight was the first night of swim lessons. it was soooo cute. 
kate has never had lessons. so that was a really big deal for her.
they had the same time, and the same lesson. big stuff.
pictures are cruddy....but i wasn't really expecting to want to take pictures. 
anyway....enjoy.
~chat soon.

pickled.

that probably is not the best title of a post. but that is what i feel like.
short term memory....full.
long term memory. unnecessary at this point.
just full.  it's that time of year.
anne is wrapping up her school year. there are field trips, scouting events, swim lesson starting, ball practice, ball games...make the hamster wheel STOP.
i am wrapping up my school year.  holding on to the idea that i made it through the first year of changed, semi unscathed.  wanting to make it memorable for my 2nd grade family...again.stop.the.hamster.wheel....
tonight my friend, michelle and i went to a 'photography class'. it was taught by a lady that i am sure is a great photographer but not such a hot educator.  no big deal. but feel bad for being away from my family for no good reason, but to take a deep breath. and now that i read it. maybe that was a God send....

my online photog class is going good.
this past week one thing i was supposed to capture was 'discarded furniture'.  in the suburbs that isn't seen too often.  you will never believe what i saw last night....a neighbor that threw out 3 couches and a head board.  and a rear tine tiller (that my husband walked home this evening...i digress) unfortunately, i can not get myself to take the picture. i decided...if it's there tomorrow, i will do it. and explain if i have to. but tonight, i couldn't.  i'm a wuss.  it's okay. i admit it. 

here are some shots i took over the past 3 weeks.  just random.  this class is more about catching the moment, and the feeling....i think i nailed it on a couple.

grubby nails, yummy clementines, funky plate. hello fun!

just joy. sweet kate enjoying a kiwi. love it.

writing a list....

fruit in a hand.

just funky. adam said...are you seriously taking a pic of mosquito larva? i said, you don't see the SKY IN THE WAGON!?  he just shook his head...

reminds me of summer.

gonna print this and hang in my classroom next year.

smiles.

pure.

catching some spring fun on the side of the van...

think i need to frame this.

and this too. something innocent, just melts my heart. 

~chat soon!
*not because i'm bragging, but just wanted to say....all pictures are straight from camera. this chick has no time for editing.....it is what it is!*

hello weekend.

glad your here.
just a fun picture of kate.
have a great saturday.